Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Exams. Leaving. and a Whole Lot of Other Stuff.
I have a strange feelin in my tummy. It’s a mix between the ‘the-second-before-you-hear-the-buzzer-and-dive-into-the-water’ one and the one you get when youre with someone who gives u butterflies.

During the last period today, there was loads running through my mind. Something was worrying me, and till this moment I’m confused and upset.
Things it could’ve been:
* Tomorrow is our first exam. Potatoes and Dimaonds..! I’m not one to get exceedingly stressd.
* I’m under the weather and I have a headache. I don’t want it to get in the way but then again there are a million other things that are impeding my progress.
* My mom and brothers just called after point number two and I was the most stoical jackass ever!!!
* My mom’s makin me go to church today because its Ash Wednesday and God will ‘bless me’ if I go. It’s already 5:30 and I still haven’t finished EVS.
* I can’t get DDR out of my mind even though I’m no ultra colossal metal fan. It's evident why.
* My mom just called again for another 18 minutes. She wants me there in March, right after exams. It’s not going to happen, not if I can help it. Which is just great because it’s making this ‘feeling’ in my stomach become more painful. Whether it’s the guilt of not wanting to be there or the fact that I am going is a different story.

But I KNOW what it is…. And I HATE thinking about it.

Today possibly was my last proper day in school. I don’t want to think about it!!!! You guys told me you would help me talk to my dad and I don’t want to go… atleast if I’m going to be in UAE till this summer… I miss my mom but this the most used to a place I’ve ever gotten and I don’t know how it’s going to be when I go… What if DDR is actually the last time I see all of you together? What if after I go I never see you again? I’m dying to write about each and every one of you but I can’t because I have to study and I know that I won’t be able to concentrate and all I’m going to end up thinking about is you guys and what amazing friends I have and how it’s not frigging fair that this is something I want and I can’t take you guys with me. Anu…Resh….Shanni. Please keep your promise. I love all of you guys. =(

19 comments:

Shalaka said...

Radhii:(!

Reddy:(!

Radish:(!

I don't want you to go..

DDR... It won't be the last time we all meet up. There'll be more, many more times.

Radhi..... I'm going to miss you..

:'(

......

*reshma* said...

hey u...im all sad now...jus hoping u wudn bring this up cuz honeslty i dunno how 2 handle it...weve been 2gether like 4ever v slappd, kissed, hugged, toked, sang, danced, cried, laughed everthing 2gether...u my lil sis...i wanna put exclaimation marks but its jus not fittin the emo mood...radhii i love you, i do very much...n its gonna be shit hell crap without my smoofie aka may aka wadhhii poo aka you...ill pray fer wen u leave n wish u deserve more than what uve got here...ur definately one of the strongest persons ive met...uve been through crap but u wud still smile...ill miss u sittin next 2 me n ur non stop talkin in class...come 2 think of it ill miss everything abt u...i wont go on...hve 2 study...or else ill get all teary...u study hard n take care of urself...i shall save everything abt u fer the very last post b4 u leave dubai...then i can afford 2 breakdown but not when evs is in the way!! srry hon, g2g now...STUDDDYYY NOOWW!!!

matz said...

hey radhii....
don wry.. evrytinz gonna b alryte... keep ur hopes up... n enjoy the time u are here instead of thinkin abt goin... study hard..!! n plz enjoy life whereva u r .. n don make da mistake i made of regrettin evrytin i did in lyfe.. n evn if u leave ull allwayz b in our heartz..

matziii!!!!

Sonia said...

im not gonna comment...okay..i am..but im not going to write any more emotional stuff...you have my letter for that :(

I PROMISE TO KEEP MY PROMISE!!!

I LOVE YOU RADHII

GONNA miss you so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so [(so)^infinity] MUCH!!


NEVER gonna forget the time we spent together!! okay this is not gonna end if i dont end it now...tty onl...

I LOVE YOU!!!

-Sonia

Anonymous said...

radhi..im nt in a badddd mood...coz i just gotta tok to ...u noe hu!!..:D

i just made this on the spot...lol...jobless...

i hate geo...i love..u...ther r many things to do...with a great big wish and a whole new world...i hope all these things will come true!!..

love u radhiii!!...weeeeeeee!!..im all high now...lol...
sing the barney song way btw!!:D

ill express ma heartfelt emotionz in school..nd..nd...nd..resh'z comment IS SOO DAMN TRUE!..

we'll miss u like crazy!!

ur one of the strongest person ive eva known!!!...proud of u!!..:D

STUDY HARD AS resh said!..k?
promise???....

DDR!!...HERE WE COME..:p
radhi...tht wont ND WILL NEVA BE UR LAST TIME WID US!!..we'll make sure many more dayz come!!...u can come nd live wid mee!...o waitt..the veg prob...well..niki lives opposite!..:P

just hop into her house fr lunch or sumfin..:P
newwyyz...study hard...nd ill pwayy fr u...nd ill pway tht u live an amzin life...nd tht u dun hav difficulties wid frenz nd family...being a fren just be4 u leave is sumthin ive been regrettin since i gotta noe u!...dammit...i giv u the permission to whackk me this time!..nd only this time!!...lovvvvveeeeeeee youuu!!!!!

MUAH!!...ANUU!!!!!
love u radhaii!...:D

Anonymous said...

For Trisha ....
When I wrote ' Anu...Resh...Shanni.. ', I meant for them to keep the promise they made to me.. To talk to my dad. Im never going to forget you, you've been there for me always. Stop it !
PS: my accoun tisnt working =S

Nishant said...

Hmm. Well, it will be a great disappointment. A great loss. Yes, I think I can say I'd miss you too. But not all your lies. Yeah, they'd stay here. :P

Okay I'll stop.

You can de-bone me or deflate me or whatever. Or just don't go.

Anonymous said...

radhii..radhii..radhii
i known u for a long time and over that time i've come to realise wat kind of a person u r..i knw many people dont like u..that's cause u're different..ur such an amzing frnd and ur someone i can can tok to about anything..people like that are very hard to find..anyway..i dont wanna say im gonna miss u right now..that would propbably make u more sad before u leave..anyway..i promise that we can make the best of the time we have left..love u..sk

Anonymous said...

hey come on just move on...u have to i have...i dnt really no wat im goin to do widout ur romours y no..lol...but watever ur lies and romours will remain wid me...
sagar

Anonymous said...

Sagar? As in Sagari ? ^o)

Radhii said...

Okay wait. I think Sagari knows how to spell "rumours."

Anonymous said...

hey...
Im gonna miss u!!
4 all da times u were der 4 me..
4 all da times we spoke..
4 all da times we cherished togetha..
4 all da times we fought:S
Nd trust me..I wont eva 4get u...
I luv u n always will!!
I wont ever 4get u!!
U betta nt 2..:D
Jus enjoy life..Study 2..
N im always der 4 u..
Jus 1 kol or even an sms..
Im always der..
Luv u..
N DDR wont b da last time ill meet u..
Ill make sure..
P.S:Radhii!!Rememba the times we annoyd vinay..:D
Nyways g2g nw..
Best of luck!!(4 ur xams)
(3sha)-There wil b no1 to kol me tht afta u leave..otha thn vinay..:'(

Radhii said...

Heyyy !! Idiot nooo .. I'll call !! VOiP isnt banned in the states =P
LOL !! Remember the time we called up Vihaan and I told him that u had a crush on him =P ?? Hahah that was agessss ago .. Lol all the prank calling .. Remember having Vinay on one line and you on the other?
Remember all the times you and Vinay helped me out with Nishant ?? Omg .. It seems like ages ago !
Luv u trishhaaa !! Nono .. If I'm not doing first term .. Then I'm going to see you all the time. Plus HEY ! IM MOVING TO DUBAI ! =)

Anonymous said...

Hey Radhii !!!

First of all I am feeling TERRIBLE - my name was not mentioned ( tears). I am pissed off slightly .

Well after being RADHI'S oldest friend from the time she entered school i can honestly say .... I WILL DAMN MISS HER ALOT :-(

you know Radhi this is making me damn emotional ..... You know i never cry .... unless i have screwed something up really badly or if i have lost a swimming , tennis or table tennis match .

Radhi even if you leave ( which i hope u wont) you will always occupy a SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART ... because you have been an awesome FRIEND TO ME !

You have helped me out so much .... not in studies but in other stuff ! (wink)

>>WE have gone for SPEEDO together ( and niki)
>>we have gone for swimming competitions together
>>we have got into shit with Murthy together
>>We have hung out with Priya Seenu ( teased her with SHIBU)
>>We have gone to Burjuman and hung out with people and had loads of fun.

And we have done so much .... sleepover....movies.....dinner....talk on the phone....joke around....compete in swimming etc

I am gonna miss you so much . i love you so much . I am gonna miss all the secrets you have shared with me. I am gonna have no competition in swimming .

Anonymous said...

Niki !!! I mentioned their names only because they promised me they wud talk to my Dad about 10th 1st term ! Dummy !

Anonymous said...

Theres such a huge list of r memories:
-Tokin to u n vinay on two fones..
-Vinay n i helpin u out wid nishant
-U cryin on the fone to me
-U gettin mad at me
-We teasin n annoyin vinay wid Lavanya;)
-Prank kollin vihaan
-Hangin out jus at ma house..
-Tokin 4 hourzzz....
-Rememba the time u were leavin 4 indian n then the states...We spke like evryday widout fail..
-I kollin u n wakin u up from ur sleep
-U n sagari randomly kollin me at like 3 in da nyte..
-Helpin u out wid all ur problems..
-Jus hanging out in the bur dubai area..
-The miss kolllin thing...
-The sms's we sent each other..
-The time u always wanted to cum here..Bt u jus cudnt..
-The time u wud temme abt ur great shoppin list..:P
-R bags!!!(exchangin)(i still hav urz...:D)

Anyways i kn go on n on...
I shud STOP..
Ppl mite b gettin bored readin r conversations..
Ill ryte this big list of things be4 u leave..
n ill post it up on ma blog..
U better move soon!!!
g2g..
ttyl..
<3 ya!!
-3sha

Anonymous said...

Oh okay .... I shall forgive you !! Did your dad agree for the sleepover ??!!

Anonymous said...

He said 'MAYBE'. He wants to know who all are staying over !

Anonymous said...

Radishfuzzmiss
ur not goin anywhere. I wont let you. The fuzz rules all
The fuzz